It all starts with a feeling. A feeling of happiness, joy, nervousness and excitement. The feeling of being passionate about someone you never thought would happen. The moment your spirit feels content the world seemed to just stand still. That moment when you no longer wear your heart on the inside but instead it's on your sleeve. That first love I had since the beginning of my life. He is my best friend, my protector, my supplier of all my needs. I am not talking about a mire man. I am talking about my Heavenly father who created me with all He has. Have you ever had a love so deep that you can't help but cry when you talk to that special someone? I know I have because you know He cares for me and He has my best interest at heart.
Having Him in my life I feel like I can do anything through Him that has given me strength and confidence to do so. With that also comes a humility that no one can understand unless they experience this love. I could not do anything without Him and without His perfect will. I may not have certain things in my life that I once dreamed would be but what God has planned for my life is much greater than anything I could have expected. This road I have to travel is not all roses and cushy, and full of rays of sunshine. There are days where it feels like nothing is going right and days where that saying comes to play is "when it rains it pours". No one should ever tell you that the plan God has for you and following your first true love will be easy. It is far from and there are moments where there will be unanswered prayers and questions you may have that affect us here on earth.
Now having all these hardships can cause one of two things, it can make us a stronger person, or it can push us away from learning the truth on what God has for our life. I have not had a life filled with joy and happiness without having hardships, troubles, and heart ache. I have personally failed at remember how deep that love can truly get. It is a shame that I forgot but it's because "life" got too busy. But what's the most important thing in my life? More specifically who should be the most important person in my life? My first love should always be the one I think about. The one I consult with everything. God just wants us to be closer to him and give Him all we are and all we have and with that He will do amazing things. Things we couldn't imagine would ever happen to us because when we sacrifice for Him, He is faithful to those who put Him first.
